vintage voodoo

shifted.

2005-03-10T13:23:00.000+08:00

pffts.

not that i haven't been updating..
but i've shifted over to another url.
and i've been writing in my own diary.

hehehe.

change your links please!

http://xstitchmylove-.blogspot.com

another off day?!

2005-02-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

AY. i'm off again TODAY.
note, AGAIN!

i was let on leave on SUNDAY (note previous update.)
then off on MONDAY.
i went back to work on TUESDAY (just 24 hours+ ago.)

and this morning, came a call..
from the irritating dumb supervisor.

she: hi eileen, i still owe you a day off.
me: oh, is it?
she: yes, the chinese new year week.
me: oh i see.
she: so is it okay if you go on off today?
me: errrrr.. (sounding v. reluctant)
she: uh?
me: oh well, alright then.
she: ok byebye.
me: *hangs up on her*

man, i wanted to punch her.
she always does things last minute!!!
man.

but still, i went out shopping.
i called yanfen (my colleague who's on off too) up,
then told her about the stupid supervisor.
haha, then we decided to go out.
she wanted to search for a wallet,
and me i wanted to buy the ripcurl bag.

so we hung up, and met up at a later time.
zoomed off for town. :)
looked around for wallets, at heeren.
then went wisma atria surfbabe,
i saw my bag, but it was the last piece.
so i asked if they had any new pieces in other outlets.
and yesss :) citylink!
a few wallets caught our eyeee ;)
and yes, citylink has them too.

so we went off to citylink lah.
spent a long time deciding on which wallet to get.
in the end we bought the same wallet!
hehehehe :) and i got my bag.

so i spent a total of 114$ today.
okay, i'm a Singaporean!
and i should do my bit to improve Singapore's economy.
hahaha *blabbers on*
this is crazy.

i wanted to get baby his jay chou's live concert dvd.
but no stock. hmpfff.
another day then. :)

i love my babyyyyy so muchhh.

results coming out soon, is it? :(
god bless me.

happy v. day. :)

2005-02-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY V. DAY! :)
(in case i do not update in time tomorrow.)

on leave TODAY! :)
went to town with dear.
first stop was far east.
he bought a pair of shoes.
ahh, it cost a bomb. LOL.
$191 hard, cold cash!
but he likes it lah, what to do?
BOYS WILL BE BOYS :X

then we went on walking..
i didn't know what to get.
i was aimless lah.
but i bought geraldine's gift.
hehe, i thought it's cool ;)

then walk...
i saw a bag in surfbabe.
PINK COLOR!!
so PRETTY somemore!
cost a good $69.
but i haven't bought it.
i kept thinking and considering.
LOL.

then i bought the phantom of the opera ost,
ripped me off $29.95.
tsk tsk.

walkkkkkk.
we decided on FISH&CO. near parkmall for dinner!
hahaha YAY!!!
ok lah, first time there.
but it was damn nice!
had a seafood platter for two,
and a sharkie freeze which was yummy.

;)
i enjoyed my dinnnner with my baby.
yum!
another $50 spent there.

then we walked to city hall mrt station.
he sent me home, as usual..

spent so much today. haha.
both of us are spendthrifts ;p

and i'm still thinking of getting the ripcurl bag tomorrow.
wahaha, $69.
argggggh. i don't want to buy it and regret.
HOW?!

ah blahh..

will be spending the day with baby tomorrow.
watching constantine.
pffffft =p
keanu. haha ;)

and well, happy v. day.
good night. :)

once in a while..

2005-01-24T14:26:00.000+08:00

spffft. i am tired with a capital T and bored with a capital B. what's worst is that, i've got work later on! :( i'd rather go back to school. hmpf!

i want to switch off days this week! :( WEDNESDAY I WANT WEDNESDAYYYY!!!

i hate stupid customers. so for goodness sake my friends, be nice to the cashiers when you make a trip to supermarkets or wherever next time! and please be considerate to the others in the queue! instead of giving me all loose coins, give me something more 'considerate' like exact notes or shit.

eg. your shopping bill in the mart hits over 100$, don't give me 100 gold coins (1$ coins)!!! or even worst 0.05$ coins. what the hell man. it's so irritating!!! MY GOD!!!

yes i am whininggggg, because i've met so many shitz customers. and yes!!! please read your receipt carefully and properly before you go confront the cashier. for goodness sake, read the receipt! fuck you.

just 2 days ago this stupid malay woman came up to me, and bought her stuffs. so i scanned it and then packed it, and billed! we are selling packets of chips at 5 for 1$, but usually you see it scanned as per normal, at 1 for 0.30$, and then again, our practise is that the total discount will be at the bottom of the receipt. but this woman didn't read it properly and she raised her voice at me telling me that everytime she buys the chips, she does not get the discount. wow fuck her. so i told her nicely we will look at the receipt later. she was so persistent and of course, i got angry.

so the receipt was out! tada, she pointed to me, "look at this, 0.30$ for a packet!!" (she was shouting already)

the angry me retaliated, "OH C'MON THE TOTAL DISCOUNT IS AT THE BOTTOM! LOOK PROPERLY!" man i swear i was so angry i wanted to tell her, "GO EAT SHIT, DON'T YOU HAVE BRAINS?!!!"

this is crap man!

spaghetti :)

2005-01-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

neng he ni qian shou, wo shi xing fu de

life is so boring now.
haha :)

most bloggers are updating about their jc life now.
i've got none! -sniffs

hm, i've no idea what to update about.
just felt like typing.

approximately one month more till the results are out.

and yup, i love fish leung! :)

neng he ni qian shou,
wo shi xing fu de.
ni jiu xiang wen rou you wan gu de shi tou..

<3<3<3

sigh.

2005-01-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

i miss going to school.

if only we didn't have to work.

i hope all these will cease to exist after a good rest.

i am sorry for all that i've said to hurt you.

but you have to believe in me when i say, i will be there for you.

i dream.

happy first anniversary. :)

2004-12-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

to me, you are perfect and my wasted heart will love you.

hehe, i love the quote above!
i saw it from one of the magazines.
i can't remember which one.

HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY BABY!

it's our first anniversary today.
hehehe :)
and my long awaited off day!

i woke up around 11 am.
dilly dally, watched tv and stuffs.
took a shower and baby told me he's going out.
so i packed my stuffs, and rushed out of the house.
we arranged to meet at bugis,
but note, no specific part of bugis.

so when i reached there,
he told me to meet him at the bus stop going towards suntec.
i was like '???!' cos i had no idea where the hell it was.
felt so damn lost lol.
and i thought, ok suntec.
i went into the mrt station again.
then he said no need to go all the way to suntec.
so i tapped my ez link card and went out of the station.
hahahaha so stupid waste my fare!

then i made a guess and went out of bugis junction.
i walked to a bus stop, but it was the wrong one.
so i walked further up, and i saw baby!
FINALLY! :D

yay he looks cute today. :)
i mean he always does!
but i like his shirt today.
hehehehe, a navy blue ripcurl shirt.
prettttty boy.

so after all the 'hide and seek',
we walked to some shopping mall, i can't remember the name though :x
and i've never been there.
we sort of missed the time slot for the show we planned to watch, or rather I wanna watch.
hehehehe.
supposed to catch the 130 pm slot for the phantom of the opera.
but ended up buying the 410 pm tickets cos we were late.
then we went to burger king to eat.
i couldn't finish so he had to clear it. HAHAHA :D
yay thanks pig!
then we wandered to suntec city and walked around.

the phantom of the opera was GREAT!
and i think guys who can sing are soooooo charming.
HEEEEE!
baby you hear that?! better go take up singing lessons!

after the movie, we walked to suntec city again. :)
decided to buy tickets for kungfu hustle at 700 pm.
hahaha. :)
shopped around before going for the movie.
mmmmmm.
lots of sale around ;)
50% sale at samuel and kevin!

and again, kungfu hustle was SO SO SO FUNNY!!!
hahaha! :)
i'm glad baby enjoyed the show.
haha, so obvious! =p
he was laughing happily during the show.
bleaaahs =)

after the movie we shopped around and then left!

he sent me home.
and i didn't wanted to go up..
i mean i hate this having-to-part part. :(
don't know, aaah.
exchanged gifts! :)
gave him the billabong wallet i bought yesterday.
and some other stuffs. :)
the wallet cost me a bomb!
now i'm broke, argh.
can't wait for my salary!
but the wallet's really pretttty.
brown leather billabong wallet.

baby got me a really big cushion! :)
and this vcd of a show he cried while watching.
LOL! =D
thanks baby!

ok lah, this entry very long right?
time for supper! :)

i love my boy a lot.

merry christmas.

2004-12-25T03:13:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep, or rather i don't feel like it.
let's do a time check!
3:15 am in the morning. :)

before i go on, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

not much of a christmas atmosphere though.
i should update about this life of mine.
i think i should.

haven't been doing much, just working.
i like the people working with me.
but sometimes i'm irritated, i don't feel like working.
i'm not irritated because of the people there,
but of other reasons.
i guess i will quit, quite soon.

i didn't send out any christmas card this year.
i feel bad about it.
and it's all WORK's fault. -shrugs

the last time i went shopping was 5 days ago.
the last time i saw my baby was one week ago.
the last time i watched a movie was a few months ago.

hm.

and the last time i was truly happy was ..i forgot.

i wish i could pen down all my thoughts.
but it's so hard to just write it out.
i guess it's even harder to voice it out.

or actually maybe, i'm just whining about nothing.

heh, christmas.
25 december.

hm, exactly one year ago.
baby and i went on our first date.

and a year later, which is today.
i will be spending my christmas working.
i wish i could spend it differently.
-sigh

i miss you.

denim day!

2004-12-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

MY LEGS HURT LIKE OUCH!

lol! =p
off! again, bleah.
one week once, so after tonight,
which is tomorrow, i will have to work like mad.

i went to town in the afternoon with mad.
haha, went to heeren first.
saw nothing, and left.
then met up with geraldine and co.
headed to their stall at wheelock place.

got blisters from the stupid pumps :(
walked over to isetan just to get a box of plasters.
i got hamtaros' plasters! so cute :D
then went back to the stall.
it was like a small 4B1 get-together, lol.
but other people came along lah,
like richie, jessica chia, jiahui etc.

left for cineleisure with madeline after awhile.
headed to pastamania for dinner!
ate, and left for far east plaza.

walked for one round on level one,
then we got stuck in a shop for the whole time.
went looking for bottoms,
then tried on a pair of jeans.
the auntie was quite friendly lah.
then she kept choosing jeans for me, and making me try them.
i was in the fitting room for a whole two hours!

ended up, i bought a pair of jeans,
and two pair of denim skirts.
bleah, spent $89.70 after a 10% discount.
geee, almost $100 without discount. :x
i feel so bad, argh.

then we left far east plaza.
went to giordano!
and i got another round neck tee.
but i got the white one this time round.
lol so insane.
i've two shirts of the same design but different colors.

i'm broke!
and i have yet to get baby's christmas present.
mmmmmm.
don't know!
i might have to DIY lol.

hur, home sweet home.
and it's back to work again tomorrow.
:/

the awful truth.

2004-12-19T13:29:00.000+08:00

sometimes i dread going to work.
not that the people there are horrible or something,
but it's making me lifeless.
i have no life! :(

i work 6 days a week and 8 hours a day.
4 pm - 12 am.
i sleep at 3 am,
then i wake up at 12 or 1 pm the next day.

eat, bathe and get ready for work.

my off day for the upcoming week is just tomorrow.
so stupid.
i've just gone on off on friday.

the worst thing is i might not be able to see baby.
hmpf.
he works 6 days a week,
sometimes 3 pm - 11 pm,
if not 3 pm - 3 am.
and his off days are different from mine.

i feel like shit,
i wanna kill someone and cry my heart out.

ARGH.

tomorrow's monday, my off day.
guess i'm going out with madeline to town.
hunting for gifts and get cards.
then pop over to geraldine & co's christmas stall.
i have to spend christmas eve and christmas working.
so sad yes?

during christmas one year ago,
i was out on the streets with him.
but not this year i guess.
he's working on christmas too, yes?

i hope i will bump into him somehow tomorrow.

my christmas wish this year...

-siiiiigh

update!

2004-12-17T17:42:00.000+08:00

wee, haha! :)
no work = OFF DAY!

hm, time for an update i guess?

work was fine, so far!
hehe, but i have plans to change jobs.
most probably after receiving my pay.
which is after the 5th of January 2005.

lalalala.

met baby during noon just now.
spent like, an hour, close to two with him.
then he had to go home, get change,
and go for work. :(
unfortunately, his offday was yesterday.
that sucks, isn't it?
and that didn't satisfy my crave for him!
hahaha :D
i haven't seen him for two weeks until today,
due to work. -siiiigh

went to jurong point to pay the bills,
then packed long john silvers home for my sister and my maid.
mmm.

guess i shall go play UNO with my cousins.
and sleep early tonight.

i miss my baby so much. :(
it will be next week till i see him again.
awww, and we might not even get off on the same day.
that sucks! so much.

no off on christmas, I BET. :/

first day of work.

2004-12-10T12:25:00.000+08:00

it was my first day at work yesterday!
hm, i think it was quite good :)

the people there are friendly!
and i made new friends, haha.
most of them are adults though,
but there are a few 16 year olds like me!

learnt how to operate the cash machine,
and the atm card machine, etc.
made a few mistakes though =x

hehe.
my legs were aching cus i stood for close to 8 hours.
and my hands are aching now,
maybe due to packing the heavy stuffs into the plastic bags for the customers.
my mom even came by,
and i was like ?!!

haha, work again later!
hope it'll be better..
=)

i found a job! :)

2004-12-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

weee!
i found a job! :)
a cashier at some supermarket around this area.
like a 10 minute walk from my house.
haha.

but i'm working the night shift!
4pm - 12midnight.
this means i can't watch tv programs anymore!
especially the 7pm and 9pm slots. :(

tomorrow will be my first day of work.
and it's baby's off day.
now i guess i can't see him.
bleah :/

i can take offs on weekdays.
hm, i'm paid $700 a month!
plus an increase of $100 if i don't take mcs/leave too often,
and i don't absent myself or be late for work!
how cool is that! =)
i'm gonna earn my first $800!

qian's gonna kill me!
i doubt i can go out with you next week.
unless i take leave, we'll see okay! :)

oh ya, madeline's working with me!
huiying's working in the same place,
but she's doing the morning shift cos' she lives in bukit batok!
there will be no transport back for her if she works night shift.

haha, i hope tomorrow will be all good and smooth for me!
can't wait for the 5th of next month,
when i get paid!
hahaha :)

but there's only something i've on mind now..
my baby. :(
he's working midnight shift today, 11pm-7am.
and i can't see him tomorrow..
sad. :(

i miss you.

my macaroni project

2004-12-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored.
i'm wasting this life of mine!
doing nothing, just idling.
there, another second gone.

i woke up around 12 :/
washed up and ate something.
went online, as usual.
crapped with qian, the other one who's as bored as i am.

started working on my macaroni project!
picked up certain alphabets, and dumped them into the vodka bottles.
wee, i'm about one third done.
i don't think one packet is enough though.

mm, i'm still waiting for the whoever to call me!
the receptionist job :/
argh, she replied me asking for my contact number.
i replied, and now i'm waiting.
oh c'mon!

and yes, something to be proud of.
i did everything that i listed down in yesterday's entry.
:)

thursday's baby off day,
and the girls want to go out on thursday.
like what the hell.
why the clash?!
argh, i must do something about it.
i don't care!!!

this sucks. :(

bie ren de tian chang di jiu.

2004-12-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

let's see! wait, HAPPY BIRTHDAY REUBEN! :) haha.

i've a dental appointment on 6.12.04!
but i lost the card!
so i guess i'm not going in the end.

i don't mind going, but.
i'm LAZY!

i sent a resume through email just now,
for this receptionist job at some hotel.
hm, i don't know.
we'll see how it goes!
i need to get a job soon, argh.

christmas's coming!
i will need to get a lot of gifts.
and that requires a lot of $$$ =p
so i need to work, argh!

i thought of getting dear this something,
and another one for me!
hm, but it's quite expensive.
and i have a lot of that something. =p
should i? i don't know
i guess i should reconsider. :)

i need to do something to kill this boredom!

either:
1) pack the whole pile of books
2) eat, sleep and grow fat
3) watch tv, and bum around
4) play some stupid games
5) just rot
6) look up Recruit and get a job fast

i like the picture embedded behind this entry.

& i miss my baby.

4b1 chalet.

2004-12-04T20:50:00.000+08:00

hohoho~ i'm back from the chalet! err 4B1's chalet! :)

i didn't join them at the chalet for the 1st night, i was with my babyboy instead! :) hm, met him after his accupuncture session, well his foot was bandaged.. but he's still walking and jumping, i wonder if it's just a facade :D haha, well hope he gets well soon! couldn't really get to sleep that night, haha. dozed off and then in a while i wake up again, that kinda thing.

then left around 7? lol, took a bus to pasir ris. geee :P had gastric that time but i kept quiet, which eventually lead to a small argument. haha bleah whatever, but all's fine now! baby accompanied me to wait for izzat :) then he left when izzat arrived.. lalalala. thank you baby :)

i was so bored on the 2nd day because most of them went for wild wild wet, and i was stuck in the chalet room with no nice tv programs. but things got better somehow. started marinating the chicken wings with jeremy. haha fun! then we prepared the stuffs for the bbq in the evening. hehe. :) our anyhow marinated chicken wings was damn tasty! haha, i like mine, the teriyaki one :D we had two pits, and we set up the fire twice due to the lousy quality charcoal, and i'm glad to announced we finished all the food! yay!

woo, was so tuckered out after the bbq. took a bath and i swear i enjoyed the bath. i mean i was so so so sticky and i smell like a smoke machine after that. so the shower was heavenly! then they watched angela's ashes on tv. haha, couldn't really sleep but still managed to catch some sleep for about an hour plus.

woke up around 4+ and the previous night they said they wanted to catch the sunrise, but the others were still sleeping like pigs, so we forgo the idea. went out with wenxing and qingrui to get breakfast instead. i got cup noodles and a bottle of juice. then wenxing and qingrui got macdonalds! i mean, there's really nothing to eat. lol, sounds gross to eat macdonalds early in the morning at around 5+ isn't it? and the macdonalds' there operate for 24 hours on weekends i think.

ate, watched the guys play starwars on xbox. felt so sleepy :/ then later we started playing mahjong and gambled! haha damn fun and it was so hilarious. you should have seen us playing! :) i left around 9+ with izzat, and we headed down to clementi to get my brows threaded. wee i was so sleepy i kept dozing off on the mrt ride back. it must have been an ugly sight :x

reached home around 11+ and i washed up, then i headed back to bed. lol, and i woke up at 7+! hahaha :D baby smsed me around 5+ in the evening and thought i might be awake already, but tada! i wasn't :P

haha, okay i think i enjoyed myself much more this time round compared to the 2D1 chalet when i ended up being people's maid. but that's not the point! bleah, i don't think you'll understand. :)

i wonder how i'm gonna sleep tonight when i've already slept for about 8 hours just now.

singapore idol!

2004-12-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

TAUFIK BATISAH! our 1st Singapore Idol! :) hee, he's so cute, so hot! he has OH-SO-BEAUTIFUL EYES! man man man! taufik's the man! MY MAN! HAHAHA :) i like his EYES, his SMILES! and the songs he sung! wee weeeeeee~

:) a short update! meeting baby later i think, after his accupuncture session. something wrong with his leg again, don't know where hurting again, he's a stupid pig!!! then going to chalet. hmm, izzat and karen will be there tomorrow. or should i go tomorrow instead? hehe we shall see.

so anyway, GOODBYE! and have fun.

LOVE TAUFIK BATISAH!!! :D

farewell night 2004.

2004-12-01T13:19:00.000+08:00

hm, update about last night? okie.

er, met izzat, geraldine and joline at the taxi stand outside clementi's macdonalds. our london taxi already arrived lah, but met nigel and gang, and had to help them book a taxi. then blah blah, we left, and picked karen up from lucky plaza and made our way to orchard parade hotel. i think the hotel was alright. yep.

then the whole thing started, and then we ate.. then had some lottery stuffs. followed by the prom king/queen and other stuffs. haha, prom king was weeqi and prom queen was amily! :) took endless number of pictures. lol, the flash light was blinding! and then the whole thing ended around 10 odd. :) continued taking pictures outside and inside of the antica room. hahaha.

hm, i met baby later.. blah blah.. haha i haven't seen him for a long time.. yay, finally saw him but for only an hour odd and i had to go home.. blah, talk about being cinderella -.- took a cab home from there lah, my mom was so persistent on me going home. like, argh. then i spent 23$ SGD on cab fare =/ FUN RIGHT. now i'm damn broke. stupid baby stuffed 12$ into my pouch. haha gonna find some way to stuff it into his wallet some other day.

lol i gave him the door gift. some men's perfume from some brand.. i can't spell. but i know the stuffs there are quite expensive. hehehe.

sian, i'm damn bored. hmpf. haha i didn't talk to my mom when she opened the door for me this morning. i reached home around 130am. bleah.

4B1's chalet tomorrow. should i?

MMMMMMM.

2004-11-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

HI! -.-'

haha, graduation dinner at orchard parade hotel tonight. went to town with izzat, geraldine and karen yesterday. and i swear my leg almost broke, but it hurt really badly in the middle of the night.

i bought a pair of white pumps from ba pin :) my sister doesn't like it, but i think it's cute! i'm not sure if it matches well with my dress though. ah, i'm gonna be the shortest tonight. everyone's wearing heels!!! :( SO SADDED!

baby's working! and he was working night shift last night, 11pm-7am. sian, he's sleeping right now.. and today's the 30th! happy 11th monthsary baby. :)

AYE, later must put makeup!!! EEEEEEE i gonna look like MONSTER!!! :( but i'm not doing anything to my hair, i no money........ so broke.

ANYONE GOT JOB LOBANGS?!!

:(

2004-11-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

if i was writing a letter with tears instead of ink or blood, the piece of letter would be wet, torn and broken into pieces. and the room would be flooded with tears.

if i could describe or explain how i'm feeling right now, i would. but i know, i can't. if i could give up, i might. but i know i won't or rather can't let go.

if i could read people's minds, and hearts, i will. but the sad thing is, i can't. if i can cheer up, i will. but for now, i'm sorry i cannot.

i wish i knew what the hell's happening.

ying wei wo zhi dao, wo gen ben fang bu xia...

back from chalet..

2004-11-28T16:00:00.000+08:00

hmm, i'm back from the class chalet. to be exact, i came back home last night. i thought the chalet was a mess, like, erm it suck to a certain extent. :) i'm just being straightforward here. it's a fact, just accept it. i mean, i'm the organiser, i can be nice and do things for people but i'm not the maid! like, fine lah it's over. thanks to those who were nice and considerate enough to help out where they should. :)

now i'm having second thoughts about the 4b1 chalet.. i wonder if i should go, but i've paid up. -shrugs

gonna go orchard with izzat and karen tomorrow i think. they are going to find stuffs for the graduation dinner.. so i guess i'll just tag along to waste time..

feeling bored now. i've nothing to do, maybe i'll clear up my books later. hmm.. i need to find a job soon, if not i'm gonna decompose at home..

baby's working already, so i doubt he'll have much time for me..

don't wanna say much.. bye..

no more town! haha.

2004-11-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

i haven't been posting proper entries uh. haha :) been towning so much, and i got quite sick of orchard! spent a lot of blingbling these few days. mom's gonna kill me, haha :D

so anyway, instead of town, madeline and i headed to jurong point just now. i finally settled on a black tube dress :) i think it's formal enough for the farewell night at orchard parade, compared to the other halter dress i bought at town a few days ago.

so now, i need to get heels! i tried walking in a coupla' heels, but it felt uncomfortable and damn insecure. so i didn't get any heels. i was thinking of getting shoes instead. i don't know if it's call shoes? it resembles ballet shoes. haha, it's pretty! hmm, i have till monday to get my shoes/heels!

i'm so broke! spent 62$ on my black tube dress. =S and i'll be away for 2d1's class chalet tomorrow until sunday. need some cash. argh, if i ask from my mom, i think she will scold me... don't know. see how. :/

baby's having his prom tonight. haha :) hope he enjoys himself.. haven't seen that boy for quite some time.. weee :(

yup, last entry tonight until sunday! sms me if you're bored or looking for me lah.. haha, if you don't have my number, then too bad :X

... town :s

2004-11-24T22:15:00.000+08:00

WAHH, I'VE BEEN GOING TO TOWN FOR 3 DAYS STRAIGHT.
AND I'M GOING TO TOWN AGAIN TOMORROW.

went to town today with serene, geraldine and joline.
was searching for my heels and another dress.
but in vain.
:s legs ached so BADLY after walking..

I SAW HUIWEN! HAHAHA :D
but i didn't see baby.
i was out of town when he went there :)
so yeah, not fated!

going to town again tomorrow with madeline!
HAHA BYEBYE.

town, again.

2004-11-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

uh, nothing much today. went to town again. but this time with my mom and sister. didn't really step out of ngee ann city and wisma atria. stuck there the whole day, but it was tiring :l didn't buy much stuffs, or actually i bought nothing at all. except for two bras when we went jurong point -.-

today sucked! huiwen saw me today, haha but i didn't see her! and heard from her that baby was in town too. but i didn't see him, like whatever. not fated!

going to town AGAIN tomorrow. but with serene, joline and geraldine after the PAE thing. gonna go with them to shop for their dresses, then geraldine and i will get our heels :)

no cash, gotta use nets tomorrow. so i'll have less than the required amount in my account. hope my mom tops it up by the 30th, if not they will deduct 2$. so dumb.

ARGH :S

towning ;/

2004-11-23T04:11:00.000+08:00

don't wanna elaborate much about the trip to town and stuffs.

- i left my ezlink card at home, so i took a cab down to meet them since i was late
- but i bought a new sling bag, and a dress for prom (karen, me and geraldine got the same one! same color even. :))
- we didn't manage to watch shutter or saw
- i think i saw huiwen in town :)
- saw mayday outside plaza singapura

i spent quite a lot today, despite only buying those few stuffs. had to spend unnecessary money on cab fare and standard tickets for mrt :l damn dumb. i have only less than half the sum of money that i brought out today left.

saw a pair of slip-ons at x:odus @ plaza singapura. i think i shall get it if i still have some blingbling left the next time geraldine, me and joline go back to town to shop for joline's prom dress.

going out with my mom tomorrow, i hope it turns out good.

as for now, i'm pissed and disappointed. maybe angry. yes, i'm very disappointed in you.

do you even care?

IT'S ALL OVER! :)

2004-11-22T10:04:00.000+08:00

HAHA! I'M HOME I'M HOME! I DECLARE THE O's OVER!!! :)

hm, the paper was alright. some questions i was unsure of, and stuffs. but it's over! haha, i bet all of us were cheering after mr chiang announced that we could be dismissed! but then again, it doesn't feel that great at all. i mean, what am i gonna do from now onwards? no more books and stuffs for the next few months. it feels weird, get what i mean?

meeting geraldine and karen at clementi control station later, we're gonna thread our brows first, then head on to town. hehe :)

oh, before i forget. i had a 'shocking' morning. he popped up from my back while i was walking out of the mrt station and talked to me. uh, shock eh? i haven't talked to him face to face for a long long time. exchanged a few lines, and i walked off briskly. he hasn't change much, i guess. i'm not sure either. :) qian, YOU HEAR ME? i bet she's shock too. lol.

my mom gave me some cash last night, hehe! and some cash vouchers for girls' stuffs! like 200$ worth of vouchers. but i'm not suppose to finish it all, gotta save some for my sister and mom. haha :) hope it'll be fun later!

shopping shopping, oooh! :) laters!

tomorrow's the day.

2004-11-21T13:24:00.000+08:00

hm, supposed to be baking cookies at geets' place today. but it got cancelled because her mom wasn't feeling well, and geraldine can't make it. so, here i am. :)

i slept around 1+ last morning, couldn't get to sleep. then my sister went for a barbeque and chose to ton at some place. leaving me and my maid in the room to sleep for the night. haha so dumb. and she just came home! called my mom and told her to buy some ice jelly for me. my maid's on the way to pick it up! ice jelly later, yummy.

tomorrow's the day! after 9am sharp i'll be free! gonna dig my gut out later, and ask my mom for money. hehe, i'm broke! gonna ask her for some incentives since i've been trying my best to study for the past few months, you know, pre prelims, prelims and now the big Os'? haha. no kidding alright! woo, shopping tomorrow! gonna catch some movies too i think. hope the tote bag at paperdoll is still there after.. two months, haha! i'm gonna get you, so please stay there! the black one! hahaha :D

i've been playing usher ft. alicia keys - my boo the whole morning. it's nice! so nice. i think i should start looking through some MCQs for tomorrow's paper.. sigh. no mood to study, getting lazy. hope the paper won't be that bad tomorrow. arghs.

passerby: can i know who you are? haha, ah well thanks for dropping by anyway. i'm from clementi town secondary school. :)

and the rest of the notes, i'll be tagging or noting soon. yupyup. i'm bored, again. are you?

a boring saturday.

2004-11-20T17:51:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored! haha, i bet MOST OF YOU (sec 4s), especially those taking pure sciences, ARE PARTYING YOUR ASSES OFF! man, i must admit I'M SO JEALOUS! but still, i'm slacking already, so what's the difference? just that i'm not hanging about in town, but at home. hahaha. such a pathetic way to spend my saturday.

i'm so bored! i opened up my wardrobe, and took out all my shirts, jeans and skirts. haha, i tried them on, and TADA! i seem to have lost weight. hahaha, the jeans are nice fitting now, a little loose and i no longer need to struggle just to put them on. i bought a pair of jeans from giordano last year, but at that time it was tight for me, like damn obvious it's tight, but now? i slip into them so easily and it fits so nicely! haha. then my pretty denim skirt slipped from my waist till my hips (almost!) HAHAHA. but i still have FAT ELEPHANT THIGHS :( talk about heredity. my mom has them too (SHH!) but i can't blame her. i like to eat and i don't work out enough. hehehe. :) send me to a slimming centre, or get me some pills? XANDO, XTRIM or what lah, haha just kidding. AH! TUMMITRIM LOOKS CONVINCING!! I NEED THAT!

besides that, losing weight is actually a miracle lah. ask my sister if you don't believe! haha. i've been pigging out a lot during the O's period. i eat potato chips like i've never eaten them before. really! i ate a lot of potato chips, i wonder how many potatos i've swallowed down my tummy. i bet there'll be more than 10 packets if i've kept all the wrappers. like, LAYS sour cream and onion, LAYS classic, LAYS barbequed. then RUFFLES sour cream and onion. JACK & JILL chill, JACK & JILL sour cream and onion. even NTUC own brand of chips, CHILLI and SPICY, woo it's nice! :) haha i love CHIPS! oh, i've ate quite a lot of ice cream during this period too. remember the napolitean ice cream i bought? it consists of 3 flavours. chocolate, vanilla and strawberry. but i only ate the chocolate part. haha, so there's a hole and two full comparments with vanilla and strawberry. i should have just bought chocolate!

can't wait to go shopping after the mcq paper on monday! hehe :) i hope my mom will be nice enough to give me some money! and if possible my allowance for december! lalala. i will still need to get my stuffs for the graduation dinner at orchard parade on the 30th. i'm going to get the graduation dinner stuffs with geraldine, joline and serene i think. gonna get a dress and a pair of heels lah? hahaha.

i'm bored still, hehe. managed to go to other people's blog and left notes. :) haven't sat down feeling so peaceful, and leaving notes. i'll leave more during december! after all the activities. hehe. baby's at home watching tv! can you believe it? he's at home! hahaha, he's always running about but he's home today. the moon might be blue tonight! :) i love that boy of mine.

i think i'll just continue lying in bed and watch zhen qing..

ain't no sunshine.

2004-11-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

OLINDA IS OUT OF SINGAPORE IDOLS! shock lah, i thought it would be SLY! but well, it doesn't affects me. so, never mind! hehehe :) TAUFIK! ain't no sunshine, when she's gone~ nice song lah, haha.

woke up around 9+ this morning, then washed up and slack. then i dragged my big fat butt out of the house and went to meet baby. nanny nanny poo poo. then nose bleed, STUPID RIGHT! last night also :( i think i'm gonna die soon. yes, no?

this post has no substance at all uh, i also don't know what to write about today. no mood :( oh, geetha went for a haircut. and she just sent me the pictures of her new haircut through mms. doesn't look punk, but i guess it should be better than her previous hair style.

i also wanna do something to my hair! maybe snip it fucking short? but i'll look like a bun, BAO! hahahaha damn it. if not rebond again? when's my turn? someone drop me some money from above.

new layout!

2004-11-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

'sup! :) BACK WITH A NEW LAYOUT! i think green looks good. don't you think so?

heh, so it was AMATHS P2 today. it sucked! and it'd be a miracle if i could pass, ah well. i hope i pass it though. :( was quite careless while expressing the answers. argh. hope i'll pass because of the method marks, like in prelims. tried my best to not leave any blanks!

so anyway, i waited for about half an hour for my sister after the paper ended. met my primary school friend while waiting! haha, karunan! he's in acs(i) now, taking triple science. smartass. it's been years since i last saw him though. and we started talking about our primary school friends. heard from him that some people changed? haha, oh well. i don't know. it's high time to do some catching up mates! hear me?

then my sister came, and brought her to thread her eyebrow. she said it hurts, but i thought it felt okay when i threaded my brows one or two months back. :) know what? my retrostar mobile accessory broke! argh fuck. it was my favourite accessory! and it broke just like that. how unlucky can i get? a bad paper, and then my favourite accessory went haywire. depressing man.

then accompanied my sister to the fast food outlets near my estate, and she got some job application forms. but i don't think she's gonna go apply for them. the outlets want crew who are able to work even when school reopens, but my sister just wanna work during the holidays. yup yup. then headed down to my mom's coffeestall since it was just a 5 minutes walk away. had lunch there, then went home!

and of course, i've been slacking since i reached home :) then started on my layout after singapore idols. i thought sylvester did badly tonight! yay i love taufik! haha, he's so gonna win!!! oh, i have to mention someone's name here. MUHD IZZAT! i bold it somemore! hahaha. chatting with him on msn lah, funny guy. well, i have funny friends! :D

hoho, meeting baby tomorrow! :) yep, tv time i guess?

haha!

2004-11-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

hey! :)

had the history paper today,
and i must say, ms low is cool!
haha, she spotted all the SEQ topics.
but not for SBQ.
man, mikail gorbachev; fall of communism.
we didn't expect this chapter to come out.
so, i didn't read through it even.
i bluffed my way through the SBQ questions -prays

but SEQ was pretty alright i would say.
i did the CHINA question!
it was on Chiang Kai-shek's turning against the Communists,
and the Long March of the Communist Party.
i've been doing china for pre-prelims and prelims!
even for the mock examination.
and the Long March question was the same one that ms low set for our exams!
yay so cool!
i hope i pass this paper though :)

hit the gym after the paper with the yayas.
ran 2.4km on the treadmill. LOL.
it was good :)
but i was quite tired after that.
i slept at 2am the night before mind you!

yay haha.
next paper - amath on thursday.
i hate it. :l

can't wait for the shopping trip after monday's paper!!!
HAHA! YAY! :))))

YAY!

2004-11-12T19:20:00.000+08:00

for those who are still kept in the dark,
here's a piece of GOOD NEWS!
YAY SHAKE IT! :)

Cambridge will be reviewing the EYE question!
YES, the question in the GCE Os' BIOLOGY PAPER.
i think it'll be voided, or something.
haha, gonna tune in to the news later at night for further details!

seems like the '88 babies have heaps of mishaps.
remember the listening comprehension exam for PSLE?
haha, some parent complained that the volume was too soft to be heard.
and we had to retake the exam!

oh well, i've been slacking the whole day.
no studying done.
this is bad, -shakes head-
and i just had scoops of chocolate ice cream!
haha, so much for CRAVINGS :D

guess i have to make an effort to read up on a little bit of GERMANY later tonight.
and it has got to be serious studying tomorrow!

oh yah, i was so bored in the afternoon,
i painted my nails black.
haha, but i removed it.
'cus i can't possibly go into the exam hall with BLACK NAILS!
damn sad ah :(

can't wait for the 22nd nov!
tv time :) wahooo~

:) happy deepavali!

2004-11-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

hehe :)
baby came over in the afternoon!
spent the whole afternoon watching tv..
haha, damn slack.
and he kept trying to give me FOOT MASSAGE.
damn itchy -.-

he said my maid's cooking was nice.
hahaha.
had dinner, and scooped him A LOT OF RICE!
lol, haha such a pig :X
so he had two servings of a lot of rice.
hahaha, but he managed to finish it :D

lalalala..
and then the time came again..
he had to go :(
sent him down, and walked home..

bought icecream and tidbits from ntuc.
i found the mochi icecream.
haha damn nice!
but it's the bigger size one.
one box for $3.50
there's 4 pieces inside..
yummy :)
then bought another tub of napolitean icecream.
hahaha!! i feel like a pig.

got to study tomorrow.
3 more papers to go :)
history, amath P2, and science mcq.
hehehe :)

hur, downloaded paint shop pro and animation shop.
trying to make blinkies all over again.
but it looks bad. haha.
i've lost touch.

lying close to you,
feeling your heart beating.
and i'm wondering what you're dreaming.
wondering if it's me you're seeing.
then i kiss your eyes,
and thank God we're together..
and i just wanna stay with you,
in this moment forever, forever and ever..

aww, i miss my baby!!!

it's been a long time coming..

2004-11-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!
4 more papers to go!

BIOLOGY papers tomorrow :(
i'm so not prepared for it!
i hope i pass it?
or better still get a B4, like prelims..
but where got so heng right!

hai, got to cross my fat stubby fingers!
and pray that i get L1R5 less than 20.

i guess i'm not going for first three months..
gonna go work instead.

I WANNA DO MASS COMMS SO BADLY!
but, distinction for english!!!
english papers are over..
i made some silly mistakes.
argh, :(

or maybe i should just go with the flow.
enter a jc, study hard for A levels.
enter a local university, and do mass comms.
-shrugs-

so many things happened these 2 weeks..
countless quarrels with baby :(
been a week plus since i last saw that silly boy of mine.
!#$%#!*&%@
maybe i'll get to see him during the deepavali holiday,
which is later this week..

was checking out blogs just now..
realised that quite a number of couples have broken off..
mm, "due to Os" the reasons of many..
but, is it that bad?
i don't think so, do you?

ah, the Os' so sickening.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR O'S TO BE OVER!
then i can have black nails 24/7!
and yada yada...

then sometimes, i feel left out, etc.
like, taken for granted by some of my friends.
it hurts, and yeah what can i do?
:) i seriously have no idea.

babybabybabybaby.
you have no idea how much i miss my babyboy! :(

gonna go bathe, and take a nap.
meeting karen later to mug.
argh, it's BIOLOGY in the house... yoyo! =l

it's finally here.

2004-10-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

oh ho! :(
it's here! the big fat Os!
it will start tomorrow!
1st november 2004.

blah, it's almost midnight.
and i'm still here.
i hope i won't be late tomorrow.

i did not prepare for higher chinese.
and it's the first paper, tomorrow!
at 8 am sharp, paper one starts.
and then paper two starts at 2 pm.

too late for regrets.

good luck to all the Os' candidates!
another 3 weeks, and it's all over. :)

november
~~01; higher chinese P1/P2~~
02; social studies
03; english language P1/P2
03; physics
04; maths d' P1
05; a'maths P1
08; maths d' P2
09; chemistry
10; biology P1/P2
16; history elective
18; a'maths P2
22; science mcq

remember to bring your entry proofs, i/c or ez-link card!
many many lucks!

a trip to woodlands library.

2004-10-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

i just wanna talk to you,
and my broken heart just has no use.
and i guess promises are better left unsaid,
yeah.
everytime you try to tell me,
you say the words that i'm the only.
but i'm the one who's crawling on the ground,
when you say love makes the world go round.
I LOVE ASHLEE SIMPSON!
hahaha :) she's good!

ooh, i met up with gita in the afternoon :)
haven't seen her for ages,
but i love her to bits!
then we went to our usual place,
WOODLANDS LIBRARY!
lol :b

but i haven't been there for some time though.
told her to teach me mathematics.
the brain cell killer, add maths!
we sat down and did work.
bukit panjang government high's amath paper one.
haha :)
now i feel a little motivated to not give up on maths!

then we went to print lots of papers!
she photostated the add maths papers that i have,
and i photostated the emaths papers that she had.
:) ladeedum~

gonna finish up a part of my english homework later.
so i can do the comprehension tomorrow.
8 more chapters to go for physics!
haha, i'm running out of time :(
maybe i'll try to plan a timetable later.
haha!

one more month!
to freedom, and whatever.
then i can have all the time in the world,
to spend with my baby.
i miss him. :(

nanny nanny poo poo.
time to bathe.
byebye!!

love makes the world go round.

2004-10-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

dododo~
reached home about half an hour ago.
had humanities lesson with ms low :)
hm, i think i'm seeing some light.
enlightenment, mm?
haha, oh well hope it's good!

o's is just around the corner.
so much to do, but so little time.
ah, don't wanna whine about revision.
sucks big time.

but i can't wait for post o's!
so much activities waiting for me. :)
the so-called 'prom' on the 30.11.04!
haha, don't have a decent dress to wear.
so that means, a shopping trip!
then the 2 class chalets.
26-28.11.04 and another one on 2-4.12.04!
laadeedums.

about one more week to go.
have to push myself to the limits.
hai. :(
stop slacking eileen!
darn.

ashlee simpson's my new found love!
i like lala, love makes the world go round, etc.
really awesome tracks.
hehehe.

ah, guess i'll go take a short nap.
meeting karen later to mug.
toodles.

till i touch the sky.

2004-10-19T13:49:00.000+08:00

i think i screwed up the science practical.
how about that? ah well, it's over.
-shrugs&sighs

hope that biology practical won't be as bad.
oh well? we'll know next week.

felt like crap after the science practical.
haha, but baby was nice enough to comfort me.
thanks!
but still, i didn't get the freaking POP sound!
i went to test for sulphur dioxide instead.
hahaha, dumb.
hope i get e.c.f(s) :D

went to mug alone last night.
but i left around 8pm.
the guy beside me kept dozing off,
and i was having fun making him wake up.
haha! i locked the highlighter cap's damn tight, and it went POP!
then he jerked and woke up.
hahaha, i wanted to burst out laughing.

going to mug again later.
i hate physics, so much.
and i'm getting confused about mole concept.
i've lost that special touch with it,
maybe because i haven't practised it for a few days.

and both mathematics!
i haven't touched them, ah so screwed.

i like ashlee simpson's shadow. :)
a really good song!

gonna go bathe soon, and out to mug.
but it's raining, like damn.
know something?
i miss my baby. :(

geeeesh.
tata.

it used to be so hard being me.

o level science practical tomorrow.

2004-10-17T13:53:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's the o levels science practical exams!
:( i hope i don't screw it up.

going back hiatus again, until the last paper.
which is on the 22nd november.

good luck! and i love you all.

:)

last day in ctss. :(

2004-10-15T18:17:00.000+08:00

and as we go on, we'll remember..
all the times we've, had together..

the past is in the past,
but i'll miss this bunch of beautiful and awesome people. :)
they made me realised a lot about myself,
and of course, they are wonderful company!

i didn't cry like i did two years back,
when the 2D1s had to be separated.
however, that doesn't mean that i'm not sad, i am.
but it's just that, we've all learnt and mature.
and come to realise that,
every beginning has an ending. :)

it was only today, when the school bell rang for dismissal,
that i realise that i'd be missing the school,
the group of really hardworking and dedicated teachers i've,
my friends, every single thing in school.
and maybe the canteen food, lol.
all these people and things, have made a huge impact in my life.
for the better, i hope. :)

i haven't been keeping in touch with my primary school friends.

not that i don't bump into them,

but i don't know what to say.

even though i'd wish very much to start a conversation with them,

and start reminiscing all our primary school memories..

i miss them a whole lot.

but, can someone teach me how to start a conversation?

-shrugs

sometimes i bump into them, and all we do are 'hi-byes'.

it's sad, isn't it? welllll.

so now, we'll be preparing for the upcoming battle which is in two weeks.
the first round will be on monday.
the science practical examinations.

i hope we'll do our best, to do our parents, teachers and ourselves proud.
i love you all. :)

all the best!

and, so much thanks to my teachers! :)
(i doubt they'll be reading this though)

i'll be anticipating our reunion with mr lee, 4B1! 10 years down the road. :)

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

mugging!

2004-10-06T17:26:00.000+08:00

hm, taking a short break from work.
gonna go on hiatus for quite some time!
until the last paper, which is on 22nd november 2004!

hope i can pull through this..
so, till then people! :)

good luck to fellow o-level-muggers!
and people having their examinations now.

22nd november 2004.
:)

catch me then, bye!

love.

:(

2004-10-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

i'm damn irritated.
i don't understand why i just can't seem to score in humanities.
it's confirmed, i've a frigging f9.
-sigh

spent the whole of today thinking.
thinking about what i should be doing to improve my grades.
a L1R5 of 24 won't bring me anywhere if i were to get this for o levels.
i should just shoot myself and die.
damn angry with myself!

baby got an A2 for his social studies,
and he volunteered to coach me..
oh well, i think i'll drive him to his grave.
but he's taking his nap now anyway.

alright, gonna go take my short rest then bathe.
and start mugging tonight.

lucks!

hehehehe. :)

2004-10-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

haha, again. :)
but i'm not as bored this time round.
published the previous entry when baby was just next to me in the evening.
haha! :D

so anyway, i just got out the shower.
feeling all clean and good now!
baby left more than an hour ago, he should be reaching home anytime now.

lalalala.
did basically nothing for today.
haha, just bummed around with that boy of mine. :)
he kept holding on to my bolster, and stubbornly refused to return it to me.
what a twerp!!! hahaha.

had fried rice for dinner, yummy!
and then some fries that my mom bought.
downloaded a couple of songs, and into the mp3 player they went.

made several attempts to take a picture of baby,
but he kept shunning the camera.
haha stupid boy! oh well :D

missing him already, that twerp of mine.
:) ily.

lol?

2004-10-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

haha i'm bored to tears :(

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bored to tears.

2004-10-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

i'm bored to tears. :(

i thought thinking was quite fun, serious.
just sit down at one corner, then start thinking about whatever.
i like doing deep-thinking.
but people usually think that i'm day dreaming.

i don't know, but i'm quite bothered by some stuffs.
like, to go to a jc or a polytechnic?
i seriously have no idea.

jc is just like extended secondary school.
and, i've no interest for such subjects.
like mathematics and sciences!
but then again, jc education might end you up in a university,
which of course is my ultimate desire.

polytechnics, you major in an area where your interest lies.
but i've read so many blogs,
where people comment that nobody bothers whether you study or not, in a polytechnic!
and the chances of going into a university is so limited.
i wouldn't mind doing mass communications or business courses!
like argh, damn the education system!

it's just like the chinese and higher chinese thingamajig.
if you take higher chinese, and obtain a pass for it during o levels,
you will be offered 2 bonus points.
but that is if you enter a jc.
forget it if you're going to a polytechnic.
HEY!! that's so freaking unfair.

ah well, why am i even whining about jc or polytechnics?
see, i told you.
i'm bored to tears.

laters.

i hate cramps!

2004-10-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

i forgot what time i slept last night,
quite late i think.
was smsing baby and managed to clear things up.

woke up around 8 this morning,
went to the toilet as usual.
found out my period has arrived.
like, damn?!

i haven't had horrible cramps for a long time.
and i just have to get it today, damn.
i wanted so much to just die! :(
it was so unbearable.
went to the toilet for a number of times.
felt like vomiting even.
lol, so helpless.
lied on the bed, felt like i was in hell.
tried using the warm bottle and water methods,
but it was useless.

in the end my maid came in with the pink pill.
the panadol menstrual pill.
i didn't wanted the pill, but i had no choice.
i took it and went to bed to rest.
fell asleep soon after,
and felt so much better when i woke up in the afternoon.

missed the chance to see my baby today,
because of the cramps. :(
so i was cramps-free the whole afternoon.
ended up updating the 2d1 msn discucssion board on the upcoming chalet details.

and now the cramps are coming back.
looks like i've to got sleep tonight with the help of the pink pill.
this is bad.
i haven't had such painful cramps for so long!
so unfair, the men should have a taste of it.

i wanted to do some science papers,
but the cramps spoilt it all.
i hope it won't be as bad tomorrow.
go away cramps!
you are so not welcomed here.

my maid's having her off day tomorrow.
and baby might be coming over.
i'm gonna spend my day doing papers.

oh, i haven't updated about my results.
did i?

english language: A2
higher chinese language: B4
chinese language: A1
mathematics 'd: B4
additional mathematics: C5
science (physics/chemistry): B4
biology: B4
combined humanities: F9 (should be)

L1R5: 24
L1R4: 20

haha. stupid results.
i've got mostly B4s.
and my humanities ah, hopeless. :(

might be able to make it to an institute,
but i'm not sure if i should turn up.
depends! -shrugs

even though i've done so much better than term three,
i've to buck up.
remember the crazy L1R5 of 43? :B
not gonna screw up my o levels.

i've graduated.

2004-10-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

oh wells, had our graduation ceremony today.
so now, i'm a graduate of ctss. :)
however, we have to attend school till 15 october.

i enjoyed the ceremony,
though i felt irritated at times, lol.
the skit rocks! :)
the video was hilarous.

and today marks my last performance with the choir.
the secondary four members, to be exact.
it was great!
even though i doubt we sounded good.

took photos, snap snap. :)
i'll miss this school, the teachers, and the people.
even though there were bad times, and good ones too.
i had the best school days in ctss.
it's where i met all my good friends! :)
i'll miss the bunch of dedicated teachers i've had.
all the wondeful memories, i know i'll keep with me. :)

collected the emaths paper two after the ceremony.
i didn't do well, but i passed anyhow.
got a B4 for overall.
oh well, i expected it. ;l

went to causeway point's sakae sushi after that!
was there with serene, joline and geraldine.
ate our hearts out! haha. :)
kept placing side orders, we had the buffet though.
spent half the time talking there, girls talk!
ate till we couldn't move, felt like vomitting LOL.
serene and i had mochi! damn yummy.
spent around 68$ in all there.

then i got an autograph book from happy house.
i hope i can get all of them to write before school ends. :)
got a really cute pouch from mini toons.
haha, bought it on impulse.
but it's really cute, yeah.

reached home around 7pm, felt really bushed.

it's really hard having to put up a smile when you're broken inside.
i don't look like i'm sad on the surface, and i can still joke.
but actually, i'm tearing up inside.

sometimes i feel that people take me for granted.
and you're one of them.
i'm feeling all kinds of emotions, and stupid thoughts.
i've been thinking quite a lot.
i know it's better to clear things up, but sometimes it's hard.
i've tried talking to you, but my attempts failed.

you should probably know how i feel by now.
don't ask me why, what or how.
i don't know either.
my mind is in a whirl, i've no idea.
i don't enjoy feeling this way too.
it hurts me, and i believe, you.

maybe things will change for the better, or maybe not.
we'll see, and find out soon..
all these 9 months ain't for nothing.
you know?

surprised.

2004-09-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

uh well, got back our english marks as promised.
i was quite shock.
i got an A2 for english.
lol.

never gotten such grades for english in my whole life.
haha :/
but still, i can't make it to the first three months.
anyway, mrs chua says i'm risky!
so yeah, i might do worst for o levels.
like, a difference by 1 or 2 grades.
i hope i can maintain this way,
but my english has always been B3 standard.
ah well. -prays

gonna check my biology marks tonight.
oh well, i hope i pass it well.

nothing much to say.
hm, happy 9th monthsary baby.
:) ily.

graduation ceremony tomorrow.
last choir performance.
voices that care, if we hold on together.
going out with e4z after that.

bye.

i'd do anything.

2004-09-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

late update tonight.
it's around 1120pm now.
and i'm still working on a piece of english assignment.
rvhs prelim 2004, english paper one.
i've just completed the situational writing.
taking my own sweet time on the composition now.
it's to be handed in tomorrow,
if not i won't get back my english prelim papers.
looks like i'll have to stay up tonight.

i passed my amaths, surprisingly.
but it's not a good pass, i've got a C5.
and i failed my social studies paper badly.
but i think, i would have passed if i've completed the 2 source base questions and the other structured essay which i left blank.
oh well, ;l
i hope i didn't do as bad for history.

hm, i doubt i'll get to enter a jc for first three months.
maybe, an institute if i'm lucky.
but then again, it doesn't matter..

my stomach's been feeling queasy since yesterday.
or was it the day before?
i keep getting stomach aches, and i feel like shitting.
but the aches come and go.
and i've gone to the toilet twice in just an hour just now.
ahh ;l
tf says it might be due to stress.
-shrugs

it's the 30th tomorrow.
how's that?
our 9th! but we won't be spending it together.
i don't know ;l
probably have to stay back tomorrow. -shrugs
haven't been spending much time with him..
even though i very much wish to see him, time doesn't permit.
oh well, why am i even whining?
-sigh

guess i'd better get working on my composition now.
good night.

i'd do anything, just to hold you in my arms..

really disappointed.

2004-09-28T16:37:00.000+08:00

i'm truly disappointed with myself.

i got an overall grade of B4 (62) for science.
it isn't a bad grade, but it isn't that great either.
i don't know why i'm feeling this way.
maybe because i worked my butt off for physics,
but, i had a border line pass.
shucks.

and then i mentioned, B4 for higher chinese.

ms low went through part of the social studies paper.
even though the papers are not released,
i think i did horrible.
here comes an F9 for humanities.

mathematics.
deproving like shit.
i'll be a little more than glad to pass amaths.
i'd much happier to get an A2 for emaths.
but, i don't know yet!
i think it's impossible anyway.

why am i even whining?
-sigh

i'm disappointed with myself.
truly disappointed.
or rather, angry.
-sigh
i feel like crying. :(

i don't even dare to tell my mom about my results.
i bet she'll say that they are lousy.
-sigh
we're suppose to go to chinese garden tonight.
i don't even feel like going now.

i just feel like crying..

disappointed.

2004-09-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

uh well, updates.

met up with karen, geraldine and izzat yesterday.
then bought black's present.
and then roamed around the mall.
karen and i bought underwear(s)!
hahaha :D

then i reached home around 4+ pm.
i got so damn bored, i kept whining.
i was bored to tears i swear.
and my maid had no choice,
but to ask me if i wanted to go play badmintion or volleyball.
so we went down in the evening,
played volleyball with my sister.
couldn't play badmintion cus it was windy.
and accidentally,
my sister hit the ball towards me.
BINGO!
so damn accurate, it smacked me right in the middle of my pathetic face.
bloody painful! i teared and sneezed immediately.
hahaha.
so we went home. :D

and school as usual today.
i'm pretty disappointed with my overall higher chinese results.
got a B4, if mdm ang rounds up that is.
:( i was hoping for a B3.
did really badly for the comprehension and summary.
ah well -sighs

on a lighter note, i passed my amath paper one!
i got 51/80 :) but it's not that great.
there are people scoring almost full marks.
and 52.5/80 for emath paper one.
damn disappointed with it.
i lost freaking lots of marks due to carelessness.
eg. 1+5(3) = 16 yeah?
i wrote 9! freak it.
ahhhh -sighs

getting back our english papers only on thursday.
but mrs chua went through paper one.
and i think i did the leaflet the way they wanted.
i hope i'm safe.

had a talk on jc education by acjc lecturers.
not really keen on entering acjc.
i don't have a good impression of the students there.
freaking snobs!
ewww.

ah well, i don't know lah.
why do we have to make such decisions at a tender age of 16?!
we're not even legal!

more marks tomorrow..
i hope i didn't fare too badly.
-sigh

anyway, went threading with karen and geraldine.
i think i look funny now.
all i can do is to wait for my eyebrow to grow.
ah freak, better don't laugh at me.
it looks much neater and thinner now.

blahs, bye.

:) happy day.

2004-09-26T10:53:00.000+08:00

haha, was too tired to update last night.
reached home around 1030pm.

went shopping with madeline in the afternoon,
didn't manage to shop much.
i want that U2 skirt!
but there's no stock for my size,
for the army green coloured one.
DARN.

walked for 5 hours plus,
damn tired, haha!
we went to heeren, cineleisure, takashimaya, wisma atria.
wanted to go to far east,
but it was already 5+ when we finished shopping at wisma.
we didn't got much stuffs,
she got her swim suit,
and i got a pair of boardshorts from tyr,
and this pink nike shirt. :)
went over to wisma's flash & splash to search for baby's most desired ripcurl shirt,
but i couldn't find it, lol.
but i thought the threaded one looks good! :)

bought some famous amos cookies!
choc chip and macademia nuts, damn yummy. :)
left for baby's place around 530pm,
while madeline headed for her gramps house.

then bought another pair of reebok shorts at compass point,
then baby sent me home around 9+,
heeeeeeeeee. LOL.
:D yay, i love that boy so much!

spent around 90$ yesterday, haha.
oh ya, pigged out on tori q(s) and tako balls!
damn yummy! :)

i think i'm getting bored of town,
i've been walking over the same place,
over and over again for the past 3 days.
haha.
but i may go back and get my U2 skirt!
:)

going out later with geraldine and karen,
no not to town again.
just jurong point,
to get black's super belated birthday gift.
might get baby something,
since our 9th's coming! :)

yay, toodles :)

results; part one.

2004-09-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

hoho!
feels good to take a short break away from the books!
i think i deserve this break, or do i not?
-shrugs
but i know i didn't work hard enough,
i've yet to unleash my full potential!
hahaha! kiddin' lah.

found out some of the marks,
and here they are:

biology practical - 29/40
chemistry practical - 10/15
chemistry theory paper - 40/65
higher chinese paper one - 59/90

i'm quite satisfied,
but then again, not really.
i lost quite a bit of marks due to carelessness!
like my chinese letter writing..
and i wrote the wrong sig. figs for mole questions.
oh man, i could have done so much better!

this is only the beginning.
we're gonna get back more papers on monday.
like higher chinese paper two,
and maths! (a/e).
i bet i failed amaths. -sigh

oh well, i can only work harder,
and look forward to crying happy tears next febuary.

had this talk in the morning,
about cultivating rewarding relationships.
damn funny, oh man.
i wanted to punch the speaker in his face.
damn irritating at times. HAHA.
i got bored after awhile lah, duh.

went to plaza singapura with madeline after school!
haha :)
walked around, had pasta!
then i saw winniefer, baby's friend.
yup.
popped over to cineleisure,
and got myself a bag.
it's big, yes BIG.
but i think it's nice, i kinda like it.
haha :)

going shopping with madeline tomorrow.
doing some serious shopping. :)
and i'm gonna see my baby tomorrow evening!
yay, finally!
haven't seen him for a good 2 weeks due to our prelim exams.
:)))

haha, gonna go slack now! :)

prelims are over!

2004-09-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

prelims are over!
-drums roll
:)

hm, i don't think i'll do well.
but, hopefully better than pre prelims!

went to town after the paper,
with geraldine, karen and izzat!
reached town long before the shops opened.
lol, ate breakfast at burger king.
quite nice!
i like the hashbrowns :)
damn cute haha!
talk cock, and cracked jokes,
left for heeren when it was about 11.

haha, damn excited ok!
cus i haven't been doing shopping for a long time.
but i didn't shop much,
bought another mobile accessory which is so cute!
hahaha.
my sister claims that it looks like my baby.
haha, but my baby's cuter isn't it!
:)

we went around eating, pigging out,
shopped for lingerie (without izzat)!
then i went hunting for my tote bag,
but i couldn't find it.
ended up trying on this pair of flip flops from espirit.
i think it looks nice,
but the rest thinks it's too simple.
i don't know, i like it.
30$ -blinks

i'm tired, let's cut short.
hehe.
walked around town for a whole 7 hours!
then went to the mooncake food fest?!
bought KIMCHI! haha!
damn nice! spent 15$ on them.
but no one at home appreciates good food.
so i'm eating them by myself, lol.
then left for home around 530pm. :)

i don't think i'll write out all the details on today's trip.
but it's damn fun, haha.
:)

there's school tomorrow.
might be getting back papers?
kinda scared, but oh well.
i hope i won't do THAT badly.
doubt i'll get into a jc or institute for the first three months.
-shrugs

i hope there's no higher chinese tomorrow!
then i can hop down to plaza singapura with madeline.
going down to hunt for my m)phosis tote bag!
and maybe get that pair of flip flops from espirit.
hehehe. :)

and we're still going shopping on saturday.
HAHAHA! :)

o levels' coming soon, :(
and we can stop going to school from the 15th october 2004.
toodles!

for, the glory of love.

2004-09-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

hoho, it's almost 1030 pm now!
know what?
i'm screwed.
even though i've read through all the topics,
that i think is important,
i cannot remember the facts.
HOW DEAD.

:(
let's hope china comes out,
but then again.
it came out for term three.
eh, there's another part.
rivalry between KMT and CCP!
potential question in the paper tomorrow.
might be source based,
if not structured. (duh)
-roll eyes

screwed. -sigh
alright, going on hiatus.

shall go look through history,
and physics for the last time.

tata!
good luck for prelims mates!

last day, history.

2004-09-12T13:05:00.000+08:00

ah, taking time for a short update.

it's doom tomorrow. :(
history and physics papers.
eww.
i think i'm ready for physics.
but, not history.

having class with mr lee after the papers.
doing additional mathematics.
paper one on tuesday. -sulks

okay, shall go study history.
tata.

dreaming of you.

2004-09-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

boo, just showered.

had history lessons in the morning with ms low.
went through defeat of germany, again.
dismissed before 10 am.

so i went home, bathed again.
packed my stuffs and met baby at 1 pm.
but he made me wait for another hour.
haha, never mind.

spent my whole afternoon with him! :)
then he sent me home,
the journey home today seemed so short.
usually it's so long and dull.
was talking to baby during the journey.
talked, and talked..
lol. hehe.

was walking home from the station,
and we were still talking.
haha!

then he came up,
searched for more mp3s,
transferred them into my mp3 player.
but the stupid me missed out so many other songs.
-.-;;

darn, so blur.
i feel so bad.

was watching tv,
while baby searched for the songs online.
haha. :)
shared porridge for dinner!
but i doubt his stomach was filled.

oh well, then it was 9+ already.
so he left,
sent him down..
:(

3 more weeks,
till i get to see him again.

falling, fallen.

2004-09-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

unproductive day;
only did one chapter of biology.
sexual reproduction in plants.
and, err.
a few questions on further differentiation?

it's saturday tomorrow.
one day/step closer to prelims.
and what have i completed?
nothing much.

i feel like crying now. :(
immense stress.
the papers are just next week!
i've yet to revise for history (13.9),
additional mathematics (14.9),
biology (15.9) which is not even halfway done,
mathematics 'd (16.9) and,
chemistry (17.9).

ahh -sigh
feeling tired..
maybe i should just go to sleep now.
-sigh

snip, snip!

2004-09-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

hoho, back from the saloon.
the hair cut was okay! :)
my hair doesn't look different,
just a little shorter.
hehe.

anyway, i remembered wrongly.
there's 91 mcqs and 21 structured,
in the BIOLOGYucks tys for genetics.
errrr. -pouts
completed all the mcqs already!
i've got 71/91. :)

time for the shitty structured questions,
which are mostly drawing of genetic diagrams.
fun fun fun.
FUNYO!

if i ain't got you, baby.

2004-09-10T11:24:00.000+08:00

morning!
something's wrong with the other blog.
hmm, no idea.
never mind.

have to start work at 12 noon!
finish up the chunk of questions on genetic engineering.
then move on to sexual reproduction,
on man and in animals!
hahaha. :)

if i'm disciplined enough to finish these 2 chapters,
i mean, i have to!
then i have to do another chapter,
i can't remember what is it.
but it's BIOLOGYuck.

planning to do some MATHEMATICSuck!
and get started on CHEMISTRYay. :)
hahaha, oh well.
i've still got half an hour left.

anticipating the trip to the saloon!
-snip snip snip!
praying that my hair won't turn out SHIT.

homozygous dominant; HH
heterozygous dominant; Hh
homozygous recessive; hh

here without you.

2004-09-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

i'm half done with genetic engineering. :)
i mean, i've studied it through,
and attempted a part of the tys questions.
but there's two parts,
i'm left with one HUGE part,
(80+ mcqs, and 12 structured)
i'll do that tomorrow.
hehe.

my eye lids are heavy,
but i don't feel like sleeping.
i miss my boy. -sigh
haven't been spending much time together.

it's just the prelims,
and the big fat Os! (argh)
never mind, endure!
we can spend a lot a lot of time together,
after november. :)

i'm here without you baby,
but you're still on my lonely mind.
i think about you baby,
and i dream about you all the time.

strictly vintage.

2004-09-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

the fickle-minded me has decided to shift, again!
hehe.
new obsession! with a word :b
vintage!
it's a nice word, agree? -laughs

went to jurong east with mommy in the afternoon.
had macdonalds for lunch! :)
lugged home 4 huge bags of joss paper.
haha, spent more than 200$ on them.

completed the remaining two chapters of PHYSICShit!
gonna do BIOLOGYuck later. -frowns
hoho.
going for a haircut with mommy tomorrow.
i feel like snipping it short, SHORT.
but i'm afraid i'll look like SHIT!
so, i think i'll just get it layered and trimmed.

oh yes.
mommy won money from toto!
and she's giving me a 100$! -grins
YAY!

i haven't done much, damn.
slack, i've been slacking.
one more minute, and i must start BIOLOGYucking.
:) time's up!